I accidentally retrieved various files I already forgot I had. One of those files was a career plan I wrote for one of our college course requirements. In 2013, I was still idealistic and ambitious (and also petty at the same time). I had some big dreams and some useless targets (such as learning how to waltz). Yeah, teenage stuff.
I remember the physical report was at least five pages long. So, in this blog, I removed the superfluous narration and just retained the important points. I also removed a lot of non-"career" plans. There are so many points of this career plan that I now cringe at. Yeah. Six years after drafting this plan, let's cringe together.
(introduction removed)
IN THREE YEARS (2014-2016)
◻ I will become a member of the college academic team. — I failed this on my first year of trial. I got accepted on my second year in college, and renewed my spot until I became Team Captain on my fourth year.
◻ I will be a consistent Dean's Lister. — I got a 2.25 on a regular semester, which deprived me of the Consistent Dean' Lister prestige altogether.
◻ I will remain in the Accountancy program and in my scholarship. — Well, after all those nights of crying and days of disbelief in self, I graduated without delay and retained my scholarship all throughout.
◻ I will graduate with Latin honors. — I used to aim for Summa, but as discussed earlier, I became disqualified. Yet, I can confidently say my final GPA (even with that isolated case low grade) was on the level of a Cum Laude and far from cutoff. Anyway, I moved on. You can read my eulogy here.
◻ I will be good in the French language. — I used to know French. Basic comprehension level. But now, I need an ultra mega refresher to even understand a sentence. This is so embarrassing to remember.
◻ I will attend at least one prom with a self-made dress. — I attended the graduation ball and the 2019 company anniversary ball. Both gowns were self-made. I do not know if this is even a "career" plan.
◻ I will have a Samsung Galaxy Note 10.1. — I bought 8.0, though. I achieved this using my first scholarship subsidy. That was the first time I held a check in my whole life. This tablet helped me a lot through my life, studies, self-development, self-discovery, and other nonsense, until it finally went forever asleep in 2018. Thank you for four years of service. Rest in peace.
IN THE NEXT FIVE YEARS (2016-2020)
◻ I will be a Certified Public Accountant. — Yes, did. Through the help of a lot of benefactors, I finished college, finished review school, passed the boards in first try, and got the public service job in my first-choice company on my first interview.
◻ I will continue studying. — Unfortunately, I currently have no resources and time to pursue a post-graduate degree. This current economic recession is also not the time to commit. In due time, I will pursue this. I do not know what I will "continue studying". It can be a continuation of my current profession, or a revival of an old dream, or a completely new path. Who knows. My main goal is to continuously expand myself to reach as many people as I can.
◻ I will publish a novel. — I have a great deal of plot ideas and even the denouement that I cannot seem to write into words. Those thoughts are still fresh in my mind as they were since 2015, but I just could not continue. It is frustrating how I really wanted to write, but I suck at everything. The five years' timeline I set upon myself has already expired. But this plan has not expired yet. In due time, this will happen.
◻ I will be my brother’s benefactor for his college. — I became. I want him to pursue a degree he wants for himself rather than what others want for him. It is satisfying to see that one year is already done. Sadly, there is this pandemic.
◻ I will travel to Baguio City. — I had the privilege to go for free when I was in high school, but sometimes sh*t happens in our lives. To date, I have not been there. But I have been to farther places—Vigan and General Santos, and many places in between.
(In the Next Ten Years section contains various far-fetched plans that I do not want to talk about, so they were omitted)
(epilogue omitted)
Signed this 1st day of December, 2013.
I cannot believe I even had this "signed this date" get-up. Won't you cringe at that?
As you noted, I have more unaccomplished business than achieved goals. You cannot imagine the cringe level I am experiencing right now as I write up to this point. I am now thinking whether or not to actually post this here, or even if I do post it here, should I make it visible.
By reading it repeatedly, my perspective changed from "this is so lame" to "this is who I was back in 2013". Whoever I was before is something I cannot change anymore; I can only move on and look back. These were my goals back then. I am looking at a version of me six and a half years younger, more enthusiastic and more ambitious.
So, I am posting this to my permanent blog—as an archive—so that I can take one last peek at that self and move on.
Final note: Cringle level 9999
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